Hi girls and guys :)
I can't believe it's already March 10, 2009.
and i've not posted in around 3 weeks. but here is a quick update..:)
Last time i posted i was an avid runner/jogger..training for my 5K but there was a setback in all that, i got a blister on the bottom of the foot, and THEN when i thought that was healed then i had a callous on the same foot..i feel saddened that i missed ALREADY 1 week of training for the 5K..my running group leader is trying to convince me to buy good running shoes to prevent from more poblems, i see her wisdom in all this, but they are sooo expensive!! if anyone knows where i can get cheaper pair pls let me know, it can't be walmart, because their quality is not the best :) Any ideas anyone? :))
But in all these setbacks and not running for 1 week is taking a toll on me physically, i've gained 3-4 pounds in 1 week without running..I am at my whit's end..but yet I can honestly say that I trust the Lord in all this, OR i am trying to Trust my bestest the Lord in all this..i think God is trying to teach me something about patience and about taking things slower, not running everywhere and always be on the run...BUT why does it have to be my foot? i LOVE to jog and run and walk and walk, i miss running so much, but I do know it will heal completely..Please Please just pray that my foot heals in time before this Friday..Yes before this Friday..because on Friday i leave for London and Paris for 7 days! and in Europe they do a lot lot of walking, i don't want to slow anyone down down there and walk on a hurt foot..So please pray for healing and for me to cultivate my patience :)
I heard the most wonderful sermon yesturday about Hurried Sickness..about how we all rush from place to place, trying to accomplish so many things at once..but never taking the time to smell the roses or help a child or take time for people..That was so powerful i am still thinking about it.
He also challenged us to 2 things...IF we like to drive fast or if we can't stand to stay in a long line at a grocery store to do THIS:
1. to drive in a slow lane, and try to Let God help you be patient, but just practice driving in a slower laner.
2. OR find the longest line in a grocery store and stay in it :)
the 1st applies to me more, i can't stand some of the time driving in the slowest lane...but i tried that yesturday as i was driving home from church ..it was a long ride and yes a couple of times i did go around the slow pokes :) BUT i caught myself and tried to stay in the slow lane..and i realized that I was sweating the small stuff way too much..and road rage is not fun.believe me!
i get mad sometimes when i drive, so from now on i'll pray to God to help me be more patient whilst i drive :)
Also last week i felt honestly like i was in the desert spiritually wise, i haven't gone to church for 2 weeks before that 'cause of the weather being yucky..:(
And i had so many doubts and even had a hard time trusting the Lord who wants only the best for me..I had such a tough week..BUT i gotta praise the Lord for good friends who set me straight FAST..all i did was do a facebook update saying that i was struggling with my faith walk, HELP..and they helped with wonderful verses and showing me their love..God taught me a lesson that day..that IF they love me so much HOW much more does God love me? So much more than any person can :)
And yesturday in church even before the pastor spoke, i felt God moving in my heart, as the worship songs i sang, i felt HIS love and HIS tender touch, and it meant so much to me that HE would take me back even with all the garbage i carry and all the sings, that HE still loves me NOT for the woman i'll become 10 years from now, not for the woman i'll be 5 years from now..BUT He loves me For who I am at this moment..such a powerful realization..ahh
another thing that helped a lot last week was reading the bible, one night i sat and it was i think 2:30AM and i wanted to go to bed, But i felt like even though i accomplished everything that day i still didn't read the bible that day so i read online a few great chapters :)
so many comforted me :) The Psalms, proverbs, etc.
Here are a few that helped me out :))
a couple i'll put here maybe they'll inspire someone :) because they inspired me especially the 1st one :)
He is my loving God and my fortress,
my stronghold and my deliverer,
my shield, in whom I take refuge,
who subdues peoples under me.
2 Corinthians 12:9--
My grace is sufficent for you,
for my power is made perfect in weakness.
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."
And Last but not least this one was in the proverbs and was very convicting :)
3 then do this, my son, to free yourself,
since you have fallen into your neighbor's hands:
Go and humble yourself;
press your plea with your neighbor!
4 Allow no sleep to your eyes,
no slumber to your eyelids.
5 Free yourself, like a gazelle from the hand of the hunter,
like a bird from the snare of the fowler.
6 Go to the ant, you sluggard;
consider its ways and be wise!
7 It has no commander,
no overseer or ruler,
8 yet it stores its provisions in summer
and gathers its food at harvest.
9 How long will you lie there, you sluggard?
When will you get up from your sleep?
10 A little sleep, a little slumber,
a little folding of the hands to rest-
11 and poverty will come on you like a bandit
and scarcity like an armed man.
Ok this will be it for now, sorry for so many verses, but they really helped and inspired me and i was hoping that it might help someone else as well :)
Please read these verses, meditate on them, and enjoy them :)) and here is a poem before i go..tell me what you think of it :))
I hope the meditation of my lips was pleasing to your sight Oh Lord,
I hope that You are pleased with me Lord.
Thank you for your love and for dying on that fated cross
just for me, just for me,
Thank you for saving a sinner like me,
Because i am the worst of sinners,
Thank you sweet Lord for
putting your ear towards me and
for listening to my cry for mercy
You are My Lord and i will worship you forever
Just love Me always
and i hope you can deliver me from my sins
I know YOU can do anything,
So i will stay strong in you Lord.
Thank you Jesus!
ok enough rambling for one night, thank you all who read this far, LOL sorry i can be so long winded sometimes, I'll scoot now and go to bed!
Blessings & HUGS to all!
To God be all glory!
In Christ always!!