all right, i've been gone a long while, but everything is so so!
my life has been full of ups and downs, more ups, but a few downs.
MY biggest weeks full of excitement, happiness, serving and just plain fun was in New Orleans the week of April 11-18th..and the excitement was in March when i was in Europe!
New Orleans' experience was totally gratifying, life changing and brought me that much closer to our Lord and Savior :)
i'll talk more about New Olreans' experience in a few paragraphs..for now i am going to confess one of the biggest weaknesses of my life.
and that's food!
i honestly think i have a food addiction..there i said it..i've been struggling with that for all of my life since i was 15-16..i use food for comfort, loneliness, boredom, being hungry and the list goes on.
I felt yesturday that the Lord wants to get me out of this pit of addiction, i felt his love and peace..BUT what are the steps for fighting this addiction??
yes some of you may tell me, PUT ASIDE the food and step away..honestly it's easier said than done...sometimes it's almost impossible to stop..the other day, 3 nights ago..i bought a sandwich, crackers, and Starbucks ice cream..all was amazing..and no i didn't finish all that i bought..BUT as i was eating the Starbucks ice cream, my body was screaming at me after eating 1/2 the pint to stop..i didn't want to, BUT i stopped only by the grace of God.. usually when eating the pint, i'll finish the whole thing no problem.baby steps though you know?!!
and the only reason why i ate 1/2 of it was because God was also begging for me to stop!! Ahh the power and glory of God that HE in his mighty glory even still intervenes into our small stuff..but YES He helped me with that.
i just need an answer from you my friends here online, where can I get help for this addiction????
i tried everything, i tried weight watchers many times, diet pills long ago, Overeaters Anonymous 2-3 times, and such...is there maybe a christian organization that fights food addictions??
does anyone know??
because in my honest oppinion & humble oppinion people with alcohol, cigarrette, and drug addictions can be done with it easier, first they can go to AA and go to rehab for 1 month and then avoid bars, raves, drugs etc..but food is everywhere i go, i also work around FOOD..i work in a store near a lot of chips, food, ice cream..i need guidance and direction..can anyone pls HELP ME???
i already did the first step to recovery, i admit that i have a problem..
now i need to get help..not sure how..:(
i may need to see a nutritionist that may help me eat better..but the underlying issues that make me overeat need to be dealt with and soon!!
i've regained some weight since Jan/Feb about 14-15 pounds..!! yikes!
well there goes the confession, now i feel better :)
p.s. About New Orleans it was such an amazing week! I felt like i was where God wanted me to be, i enjoyed my time serving and growing closer to God and to the people of New Orleans..it was purely amazing :) and i made many great Christian friends on the trip too :) it was life changing, and sweet! i took 1-2 weeks to readjust being back home..the first days were so hard..they are still hard...but it's easier now..but the food is taking over..please keep me in prayer over my food issues. because i don't purge nor undereat..i just overeat, and some days i have binges..like 2 days ago!!!
please keep me in prayer :)
and throgh it all...I know God is good, and He'll carry me through and i'll come out stronger from this later on..i know this will be part of my testimony someday :)
i may be able to minister to other girls who struggle with food issues, i know God will take care of tbis part of my life..i need to give it OVER to him, and lay it at the Cross..:)
well bye all, i'll try to post soon!
It may be a little while before i post again because next week i have my college finals..well bye bye!! LOVE & HUGS to all!
In His Love, Jane.